bgsuwoody
03-10-12, 05:34 PM
It's been a while since I've posted on here and a long time since I've really been active here. I have seen a few people making their way "home" as of late from the hayday of about 5 years ago so I figured why not try to make it back myself. Quite frankly everyone I am lost and trying to find my way.
I got a lot on my mind as of late. I am currently stuck in Regimental PSD with RCT6 and its just not what I came in the Marine Corps for, and especially not what I reenlisted for. I am stuck in an OPFOR contract which doesn't end until Aug of 2013. However, after this deployment I am being told by the Reg. Sgt. Major that he will not allow me to return to my parent BN even though I am TAD because he is worried about my "career" and would initiate a B-billet for me. He says he can get me out of my OPFOR with what I have done here and it shouldn't be a problem, but we all know Marine Corps promises. However I am still not sure if this is going to be my career and quite frankly though I know that this war is over, I feel obligated to continue to stay in the fleet and pass my wisdom to those who have earned and deserve it.
However, I wouldn't mind a B-billet but I am really worried as of late with the Marine Corps and "hazing" and Marines going to MCRD or SOI are walking on eggshells to try not to get caught in made up hazing allegations which end up ruining their careers anyway. I sure as hell am not a recruiter and would be lucky to make it 5 minutes before scaring the weak away or putting someone through a wall. That leaves MSG and quite frankly I'm just not sure. Sounds cool, but its still post and everything in the Marine Corps thats "sugar coated" or "greener on the other side" turns out to be just lipstick on a pig. I'm looking for that last remaining challenge.
This leaves option C. The dreaded move to the darkside. With my college degree I am eligible for ECP, However I am concerned with a few things. First I am almost 28 and not in the shape I was as a 22 year old. These damn flaks and some hip flexor tears don't let up after a while and though I rock a PFT I am not sure how intense I will be able to take it for a constant period of time (I probably am fine, I always think I am not as good and end up being top 10 percent PT wise.) I mean I can say 270 PFT no problem anyday of the week.
My biggest concern however, is that if I decide to earn the bars of gold I want to be an infantry officer. I want to bring my skills to the table where they are deserved and where I can best be utilized. Quite frankly I would go nuts in Supply or in the Airwing. I undestand the process for MOS selection, but I was wondering if there was any type of reservation for MOS for prior service.
Quite frankly I have to start making decisions soon. Time goes by too quick. I am 5 years into the Corps and 3 deployments through (still on the 3rd) and I'm not getting younger and the days aren't getting any slower. I am not sure what advice I am truly asking for here, but it isn't "do whatever your heart tells you" or "wait and feel it out"
I know some of you have followed my progress for years now and have mentored me along the way and quite frankly, I am not sure if I am being selfish, but I am asking for some wisdom on an important decision I must make and quite frankly anything would help at this point.
I love being a Marine and even more love being an infantry Marine. I just think I have hit the crossroads where that dream may end and I may have to go do something other than hook and jab and pass on my knowledge in the fleet and I am really scared to death that this dream and this grunt lifestyle may be over for me in return for some post or a classroom or a desk. All avenues point to this and I am seeing Regiment right now and I want nothing of it. NOTHING. I really need some help.
I got a lot on my mind as of late. I am currently stuck in Regimental PSD with RCT6 and its just not what I came in the Marine Corps for, and especially not what I reenlisted for. I am stuck in an OPFOR contract which doesn't end until Aug of 2013. However, after this deployment I am being told by the Reg. Sgt. Major that he will not allow me to return to my parent BN even though I am TAD because he is worried about my "career" and would initiate a B-billet for me. He says he can get me out of my OPFOR with what I have done here and it shouldn't be a problem, but we all know Marine Corps promises. However I am still not sure if this is going to be my career and quite frankly though I know that this war is over, I feel obligated to continue to stay in the fleet and pass my wisdom to those who have earned and deserve it.
However, I wouldn't mind a B-billet but I am really worried as of late with the Marine Corps and "hazing" and Marines going to MCRD or SOI are walking on eggshells to try not to get caught in made up hazing allegations which end up ruining their careers anyway. I sure as hell am not a recruiter and would be lucky to make it 5 minutes before scaring the weak away or putting someone through a wall. That leaves MSG and quite frankly I'm just not sure. Sounds cool, but its still post and everything in the Marine Corps thats "sugar coated" or "greener on the other side" turns out to be just lipstick on a pig. I'm looking for that last remaining challenge.
This leaves option C. The dreaded move to the darkside. With my college degree I am eligible for ECP, However I am concerned with a few things. First I am almost 28 and not in the shape I was as a 22 year old. These damn flaks and some hip flexor tears don't let up after a while and though I rock a PFT I am not sure how intense I will be able to take it for a constant period of time (I probably am fine, I always think I am not as good and end up being top 10 percent PT wise.) I mean I can say 270 PFT no problem anyday of the week.
My biggest concern however, is that if I decide to earn the bars of gold I want to be an infantry officer. I want to bring my skills to the table where they are deserved and where I can best be utilized. Quite frankly I would go nuts in Supply or in the Airwing. I undestand the process for MOS selection, but I was wondering if there was any type of reservation for MOS for prior service.
Quite frankly I have to start making decisions soon. Time goes by too quick. I am 5 years into the Corps and 3 deployments through (still on the 3rd) and I'm not getting younger and the days aren't getting any slower. I am not sure what advice I am truly asking for here, but it isn't "do whatever your heart tells you" or "wait and feel it out"
I know some of you have followed my progress for years now and have mentored me along the way and quite frankly, I am not sure if I am being selfish, but I am asking for some wisdom on an important decision I must make and quite frankly anything would help at this point.
I love being a Marine and even more love being an infantry Marine. I just think I have hit the crossroads where that dream may end and I may have to go do something other than hook and jab and pass on my knowledge in the fleet and I am really scared to death that this dream and this grunt lifestyle may be over for me in return for some post or a classroom or a desk. All avenues point to this and I am seeing Regiment right now and I want nothing of it. NOTHING. I really need some help.