matejkaaj
03-01-10, 09:57 PM
Hello. This is just another question that some wannabe has, but I was hoping you guys could help me out. Just to start off I am 15, and don't care much for politics. Its just seems like constant arguing over what to do. But I do care about somethings. I don't question that I am patriot, I love America. Most kids my age don't give a damn about the war in Iraq or Afghanistan, and if it ever comes up in a class discussion most of them just say things that make them sound like they have no idea what they are talking about. I do have those things on my mind though, a lot. I never forget about it, even if I'm doing something completely unrelated, its always in the back of my mind. Usually its about why we are fighting. I can't get it off my mind. I do want to want to join the Marines when I am old enough. I do want to go to Afghanistan. I don't expect it to be fun or exciting, just I feel like I need to do it, if I even get my chance. My mom told me to finish college first, but I know that there are things more important then me going to college, and frankly my life doesn't mean that much in the long run. I have tried to explain to a few people but they just don't understand. It's like every time I see the news about the Marines in Marjah, I just get this feeling I need to be there. It's not about serving my country. I can't explain it, it's extremely difficult, writing this was. I spent most of my boring summer by myself, while everyone stayed in and played Call of Duty. Basically I had a lot of time to think. I thought about war a lot, what its like to kill a person, to watch your friends die, life and death. I began to question the point of it all. I contemplated this deeper and deeper for a long time. I thought about my countries wars. I studied war history and mainly focused on America's. I learned about Iwo Jima, Okinawa, Guadalcanal, Peleliu, Normandy, Tarawa, Khe Sahn, Grednada, Somalia, Bagdahd and Fallujah. There are too many to name. I learned about the good we had fought for, and the bad. I made sure I knew the atrocities we had committed, like My Lai and Abu Ghraib. But through it all I noticed that all of these crimes were committed by a small group of soldiers, sailors, airmen, or Marines. They never equaled up to what the enemy had done. It seems like we had always fought the men who had oppressed or killed millions. And the wars we have won have put a stop to it. I just needed someone who I felt understands this to ask. I know war is bad, it is one of the most horrible things about humanity, but through all of it, I think our wars have been worth it. I just don't feel anybody knows what I meant by this, except some of you guys. I doubt veterans think about this in combat, but I think it comes across your mind someday. Teachers, parents, and friends constantly ask me if I'm okay. I just can't get it off my mind. Sometimes I hear the little voice inside my head say, "You know what Japan did to the Chinese and millions of others, what Nazi Germany did, what North Vietnam and communism did, what Saddam and the Insurgents do to Iraqi's, and how the Taliban oppressed the Afghans, how can you ever think we are the bad guys when we stop it." And I know Iraqi civilians get killed, but I believe if we win Iraq will be free from people like Sadaam and Al-Qaeda. Everyday I feel further and further away from my friends and family, and avoid them, and they try to talk to me, but just want to left alone. I'm sorry I am telling you guys this but I don't think most people know what I mean. When I hear the words, United States Marine or Semper Fidleis I just get a feeling. I just get a strange feeling when I see Marines in combat. I want to be there. I just don't know how to explain it. I know some people think we shouldn't be in Iraq, some should, and some don't care. But I believe in this war. I believe our wars from World War Two and on have been for a just cause, and the bloodshed, and pain had been worth it. I know this whole thing sounds long and corny. I just wanted to know if you believe in our wars, and why do you. I just wanted to know if you know what I mean when I say I want to be fighting and if you have thoughts of war that you can't get off your mind.Thanks for your answers.
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