Cjcruzi3
08-07-08, 10:57 AM
So im going to start this post about 6 months ago...
February something or the other 2008.
I walk into an OSO office to see my options for the marine corps when i graduate college. Pretty much they tell me im perfect on paper.... almost. i have a tattoo on my hand.. damn.ok so i can't be an officer but Gunnery Sergeant Purcells says im going to try something for you and contacts me with one of the most influential people in my life at the moment Sergeant Dawson(now staff sergeant). I plan to make a meeting with Sergeant Dawson to see my enlisted options ( a plan i didn't think i was going to go through on). Anyways after about a week of cancelling plans with Sergeant Dawson i finally give in and he picks me up and takes me to the office. Now this Man has motivated me so much with the way he talked to me about the Marine Corps that i have stood up shook his hand looked him in the eye and told him I WANT TO BE A MARINE! and i meant it too. I really did it felt right to me it really did.
A couple of days later i go down to the office only to find out im about 30 pounds over weight... UGH! and i was looking to leave soon. not a good thing so i decided to go home. after having an intense battle with if i really wanted it or not i decide yes and do what i can to make weight. Finally after about 3 months i give sergeant Dawson that call. Im 4 pounds overweight lets get this going.
Now to this point i haven't given much details because i really want to tell you guys this story this is a story that has truly defined me as a person right now and has shown me what i could do and what i want.
May 29,2008-
Sergeant Dawson picks me up in the morning after i had already done some PT to lose weight. Now i have done alot of running and dieting so i could make weight but i had no endurance. Sergeant Dawson tells me. Cruz we are going to PT today and get you at weight for tomorrow. Now mind you when i got weighted down at MEPS i was 7 pounds over. SO i have to lose 7 pounds in one day.... and i wanted to do it as right as possible.
My day started with some jogging, now i could run but not as much as i prolly should or that i have to for the marine corps, i jog about 3/4 mile before Gunther (another recruit) wants to do some other type of training so we start doing up downs. well i cant describe how much this sucked i had a lready run for awhile so i was gassed and felt like i had no energy. i was just drenched from all energy and to make it better it decided to rain. so now im heavy, tired, drenched and jumping in the grass doing updowns, mountain climbers and other sorts of exercises. I have given up on myself. i really have i decided in my head im not going to make it just work for it another day. Now i can't truly describe how bad it feels to give up on yourself when you truly want something but it is what i did i just gave up said forget it and gave up. I lightly jogged my 3/4 mile back to the office walking at points and just throwing in the sheets. Then gunther was like alright crunches, me being tired didn't want to but i did it anyways. i managed 68 in 2 minutes so i had passed the test to graduate boot camp i was like hey one good bit of news but it doesn't change the fact that in my head i was done i gave up even though in the exterior i was trying to show like i was truly trying. Then i went inside with Florzack and Gunter to do some heavy bag hitting. So now it was about 12:30 i had been training for about 1 hour and a half. I decided to get on the scale and see what wasup. i had lost a grand totral of 1/2 pounds.. 1/2 pounds now for someone who had given up on themselves thats the worst thing you could see. i barely tried on my pullups and pushups giving up prematurely saying i could not go when i knew i could but i didn't want it no more. didn't have that desire.
Then the turning point came Segeant Dawson walks in and says lets go play some basketball Cruz. He hadn't given up on me. Me thinking very naively i should add that we were going to take a car to the park was in for a suprise when i realized. Hey were running to the park. So we ran about 1 mile to the park. Now this run sucked and i was again giving up on myself since i did not care anymore i really didn't. i was dehydrated felt i could do it in due time and felt very faint. Anyways we play some 21 and some 5 on 5. It was fun but again i was giving up on myself while playing. Now you say this isn't a turning point its the same thing you did before but he is the real magic.
I ask Dawson if we could just walk back to the office and he says hell no HELL NO! your sweating your losing your weight. and i reluncently start running back. This run showed me so much about myself that i didn't know about the power of the human heart about the body about the mind about the mentallity of the marine corps.
For anyone whos done about 4 hours of training you should know what it feels like when your body wants to shutdown and you juts don't want to go anymore. well thts how i felt like i was going to faint like i was going to die. it may seem a little dramatic but its the truth.
This run showed me about brotherhood, about myself and my endurance and how strong my mind truly is. Everytime i tried to walk Florzack would push me and say dude your running even if you need to lean on me you run amongst me saying "I can't, i just can't anymore" he says yes you can dude yes you can me knowing this is for motivation. And Sergeant Dawson urging me to run as well while i still doubt myself. Florzack opens and gives me water as im running. it felt like 30 minutes and we had only run 1/4 mile. I felt i was never going to make it. I threw up in my mouth i got dizzy i almost dropped but florzack didn't let me he wouldn't let me he pushed me he helped me. Thats the marine corps for you brotherhood helping eachother go. but it was still extremly hard for me. extremly. Thats when sergeant dawson truly turned on the motivation he looked at me as were running and said Cruz manr youve gotten this far youve lost 30 pounds in 3 months and your going to give up on the homestretch. he said i know you hate me right now but you will love me later trust me. truth is i did hate him and was thinking you dodn' tkno what im going through. but the more he uttered these words the more i realized its true. "YOUR ALMOST THERE CRUZ!" and i was i was right at the finish to be a recruit for the marine corps. now i dunno what happened but i reached down inside i found this zone in my head that got my mind over my body and suddenly i was sprinting with about 1/2 mile to go. and im going faster faster pushing not caring that i felt faint and like throwing up. i pushed, pushed harder than i ever had before, i pushed past my comfort zone and pushed all the while in the back i hear something that just gave me more fuel. "THATS WHAT IM SAYIING CRUZ, GO! THATS MOTIVATION BABY" knowing that these guys believe in me helped me it helped me go and i pushed to the end of the run sprinting all on heart on complete heart. i had no energy no gas nothing i had been training since 11 and it was now about 4. but i found this push and i found out about the human body it has a comfort zone u need to get past and you will accomplish things, the mind will always be greater than the body. i found out i could make it and i felt damn i could make it i could be a marine. i got congradulated and it felt damn good. damn good. the rest of the day i did not complain i ran again and just did what i could do i even found myself helping another kid trying to get into recruit status telling him remember this "your better than me right now ive been here since 11" all while still running with him.
i had found out i could do what i want it i got passed the comfort if i pushed just that much more. this is who i am, now i understand a couple of things and i feel invincible like i can accomplish anything and i plan on taking this mentallity to the world and all my life. i felt accomplished but i didn't weigh myself i wanted to wait till the next day. i got home at 10 that day training since 11 in the AM.
May 30 Meps processing.
now i don't want to get into details but i had a hard time in my physical it felt like obsticle after obsticle came up. but from the night before i did not let that deter myself. i kept going i got through all the obsticles and it was time to weigh myself now. this was my moment had i done it. height 70 1/2 inches meaning i needed to be 221. i was weighing at 228 the previous day. then i got on the scale and it read 221. i had made it. and let me tell you it was worth it. i pushed for what i wanted and had gotten it. then a quote got into my mind and it is very true. "Brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things" and i had found out i found out how bad i wanted this now for the rest of the day i waited and waited to swear in but it was worth it. i got my shipdate (october 6) and i had finally gotten in. swearing in felt awesome. completely awesome i am now Recruit CruzVargas for the marine corps. i had pushed through everything and now im on my way to be what i want to be. and i just want to say thank you sergeant Dawson for everything you motivated me alot and helped me realize i could go above what i thought i could. The mind is a crazy thing as well as the human body you just have to get out of your comfort zone to get there.
Just remember push people push and you will get what you want. in the past two days i literally sweated, bled, and i ever cried a little when i swore in but its worth it.
Push people, Push past your comfort zone and anything is possible.
Nothing is Impossible and always remember
Brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things
i wrote this right after i finished MEPs and felt like sharing it with you guys, For any fat bodies out there if i could do it trust me you could to and just believe in the marine corps and get motivated never lose sight of that Eagle Globe and Anchor for it will be worth it in the end.
February something or the other 2008.
I walk into an OSO office to see my options for the marine corps when i graduate college. Pretty much they tell me im perfect on paper.... almost. i have a tattoo on my hand.. damn.ok so i can't be an officer but Gunnery Sergeant Purcells says im going to try something for you and contacts me with one of the most influential people in my life at the moment Sergeant Dawson(now staff sergeant). I plan to make a meeting with Sergeant Dawson to see my enlisted options ( a plan i didn't think i was going to go through on). Anyways after about a week of cancelling plans with Sergeant Dawson i finally give in and he picks me up and takes me to the office. Now this Man has motivated me so much with the way he talked to me about the Marine Corps that i have stood up shook his hand looked him in the eye and told him I WANT TO BE A MARINE! and i meant it too. I really did it felt right to me it really did.
A couple of days later i go down to the office only to find out im about 30 pounds over weight... UGH! and i was looking to leave soon. not a good thing so i decided to go home. after having an intense battle with if i really wanted it or not i decide yes and do what i can to make weight. Finally after about 3 months i give sergeant Dawson that call. Im 4 pounds overweight lets get this going.
Now to this point i haven't given much details because i really want to tell you guys this story this is a story that has truly defined me as a person right now and has shown me what i could do and what i want.
May 29,2008-
Sergeant Dawson picks me up in the morning after i had already done some PT to lose weight. Now i have done alot of running and dieting so i could make weight but i had no endurance. Sergeant Dawson tells me. Cruz we are going to PT today and get you at weight for tomorrow. Now mind you when i got weighted down at MEPS i was 7 pounds over. SO i have to lose 7 pounds in one day.... and i wanted to do it as right as possible.
My day started with some jogging, now i could run but not as much as i prolly should or that i have to for the marine corps, i jog about 3/4 mile before Gunther (another recruit) wants to do some other type of training so we start doing up downs. well i cant describe how much this sucked i had a lready run for awhile so i was gassed and felt like i had no energy. i was just drenched from all energy and to make it better it decided to rain. so now im heavy, tired, drenched and jumping in the grass doing updowns, mountain climbers and other sorts of exercises. I have given up on myself. i really have i decided in my head im not going to make it just work for it another day. Now i can't truly describe how bad it feels to give up on yourself when you truly want something but it is what i did i just gave up said forget it and gave up. I lightly jogged my 3/4 mile back to the office walking at points and just throwing in the sheets. Then gunther was like alright crunches, me being tired didn't want to but i did it anyways. i managed 68 in 2 minutes so i had passed the test to graduate boot camp i was like hey one good bit of news but it doesn't change the fact that in my head i was done i gave up even though in the exterior i was trying to show like i was truly trying. Then i went inside with Florzack and Gunter to do some heavy bag hitting. So now it was about 12:30 i had been training for about 1 hour and a half. I decided to get on the scale and see what wasup. i had lost a grand totral of 1/2 pounds.. 1/2 pounds now for someone who had given up on themselves thats the worst thing you could see. i barely tried on my pullups and pushups giving up prematurely saying i could not go when i knew i could but i didn't want it no more. didn't have that desire.
Then the turning point came Segeant Dawson walks in and says lets go play some basketball Cruz. He hadn't given up on me. Me thinking very naively i should add that we were going to take a car to the park was in for a suprise when i realized. Hey were running to the park. So we ran about 1 mile to the park. Now this run sucked and i was again giving up on myself since i did not care anymore i really didn't. i was dehydrated felt i could do it in due time and felt very faint. Anyways we play some 21 and some 5 on 5. It was fun but again i was giving up on myself while playing. Now you say this isn't a turning point its the same thing you did before but he is the real magic.
I ask Dawson if we could just walk back to the office and he says hell no HELL NO! your sweating your losing your weight. and i reluncently start running back. This run showed me so much about myself that i didn't know about the power of the human heart about the body about the mind about the mentallity of the marine corps.
For anyone whos done about 4 hours of training you should know what it feels like when your body wants to shutdown and you juts don't want to go anymore. well thts how i felt like i was going to faint like i was going to die. it may seem a little dramatic but its the truth.
This run showed me about brotherhood, about myself and my endurance and how strong my mind truly is. Everytime i tried to walk Florzack would push me and say dude your running even if you need to lean on me you run amongst me saying "I can't, i just can't anymore" he says yes you can dude yes you can me knowing this is for motivation. And Sergeant Dawson urging me to run as well while i still doubt myself. Florzack opens and gives me water as im running. it felt like 30 minutes and we had only run 1/4 mile. I felt i was never going to make it. I threw up in my mouth i got dizzy i almost dropped but florzack didn't let me he wouldn't let me he pushed me he helped me. Thats the marine corps for you brotherhood helping eachother go. but it was still extremly hard for me. extremly. Thats when sergeant dawson truly turned on the motivation he looked at me as were running and said Cruz manr youve gotten this far youve lost 30 pounds in 3 months and your going to give up on the homestretch. he said i know you hate me right now but you will love me later trust me. truth is i did hate him and was thinking you dodn' tkno what im going through. but the more he uttered these words the more i realized its true. "YOUR ALMOST THERE CRUZ!" and i was i was right at the finish to be a recruit for the marine corps. now i dunno what happened but i reached down inside i found this zone in my head that got my mind over my body and suddenly i was sprinting with about 1/2 mile to go. and im going faster faster pushing not caring that i felt faint and like throwing up. i pushed, pushed harder than i ever had before, i pushed past my comfort zone and pushed all the while in the back i hear something that just gave me more fuel. "THATS WHAT IM SAYIING CRUZ, GO! THATS MOTIVATION BABY" knowing that these guys believe in me helped me it helped me go and i pushed to the end of the run sprinting all on heart on complete heart. i had no energy no gas nothing i had been training since 11 and it was now about 4. but i found this push and i found out about the human body it has a comfort zone u need to get past and you will accomplish things, the mind will always be greater than the body. i found out i could make it and i felt damn i could make it i could be a marine. i got congradulated and it felt damn good. damn good. the rest of the day i did not complain i ran again and just did what i could do i even found myself helping another kid trying to get into recruit status telling him remember this "your better than me right now ive been here since 11" all while still running with him.
i had found out i could do what i want it i got passed the comfort if i pushed just that much more. this is who i am, now i understand a couple of things and i feel invincible like i can accomplish anything and i plan on taking this mentallity to the world and all my life. i felt accomplished but i didn't weigh myself i wanted to wait till the next day. i got home at 10 that day training since 11 in the AM.
May 30 Meps processing.
now i don't want to get into details but i had a hard time in my physical it felt like obsticle after obsticle came up. but from the night before i did not let that deter myself. i kept going i got through all the obsticles and it was time to weigh myself now. this was my moment had i done it. height 70 1/2 inches meaning i needed to be 221. i was weighing at 228 the previous day. then i got on the scale and it read 221. i had made it. and let me tell you it was worth it. i pushed for what i wanted and had gotten it. then a quote got into my mind and it is very true. "Brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things" and i had found out i found out how bad i wanted this now for the rest of the day i waited and waited to swear in but it was worth it. i got my shipdate (october 6) and i had finally gotten in. swearing in felt awesome. completely awesome i am now Recruit CruzVargas for the marine corps. i had pushed through everything and now im on my way to be what i want to be. and i just want to say thank you sergeant Dawson for everything you motivated me alot and helped me realize i could go above what i thought i could. The mind is a crazy thing as well as the human body you just have to get out of your comfort zone to get there.
Just remember push people push and you will get what you want. in the past two days i literally sweated, bled, and i ever cried a little when i swore in but its worth it.
Push people, Push past your comfort zone and anything is possible.
Nothing is Impossible and always remember
Brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things
i wrote this right after i finished MEPs and felt like sharing it with you guys, For any fat bodies out there if i could do it trust me you could to and just believe in the marine corps and get motivated never lose sight of that Eagle Globe and Anchor for it will be worth it in the end.