LeonardLawrence
11-25-07, 02:01 AM
I have found myself thinking alot about life. Where I have been, where I am going and where I am. I am thinking about growing a mullet and getting a sports car that doesn't fit my children's car seats...or my wife....or myself.:D The sad part is I am 30 and if a mid-life crisis gets worse than this, I may be in trouble!
I find there is a big discrepancy between where I am and where I want to be. Where I am going and where I am. I am NOT in the spot I want to be right now. I am taking steps in the right direction, but have not reached where I want to be and am afraid I may never be content with where I am.
Then I had an ephiphany, what you might call a "moment of clarity".
Why the hell was I whining like a little schoolgirl?
A majority of life's obstacles that I am battling to reach my goals are "Life". Alot of the obstacles that are causing me so much grief I have thrown in my own path,at some point in the past ten years. Maybe in some macabre attempt at humor. Watching myself fall and fail and fall some more and not quite live up to my own standards must be hilarious to my inner me.
I also realized that I have no excuses for not directing my energies and focus on reaching my goals. If I am not happy when I get there, then I will have at least enjoyed the journey on the way. Spend time with family, friends doing what I like with a concentration on the goal.
So, I encourage anyone out there that feels blocked from their goals to join me in dropping their "TOOs" with me and just focus on your goals, whether you think you are too fat, too old, too lazy, too hungry, too grumpy, too stuck or too undisciplined to reach your dreams. Recognize that you may be, right now, but you need to take action right now to change your circumstances. If you want to be a Marine, go do it! If you want to lose weight, go do it! If you want to run 10 miles everyday with a broken leg...well, the Docs might disagree, but if it makes you happy...go do it!
If my inner me is reading this...watch out, buddy 'cause I am coming for you!
I find there is a big discrepancy between where I am and where I want to be. Where I am going and where I am. I am NOT in the spot I want to be right now. I am taking steps in the right direction, but have not reached where I want to be and am afraid I may never be content with where I am.
Then I had an ephiphany, what you might call a "moment of clarity".
Why the hell was I whining like a little schoolgirl?
A majority of life's obstacles that I am battling to reach my goals are "Life". Alot of the obstacles that are causing me so much grief I have thrown in my own path,at some point in the past ten years. Maybe in some macabre attempt at humor. Watching myself fall and fail and fall some more and not quite live up to my own standards must be hilarious to my inner me.
I also realized that I have no excuses for not directing my energies and focus on reaching my goals. If I am not happy when I get there, then I will have at least enjoyed the journey on the way. Spend time with family, friends doing what I like with a concentration on the goal.
So, I encourage anyone out there that feels blocked from their goals to join me in dropping their "TOOs" with me and just focus on your goals, whether you think you are too fat, too old, too lazy, too hungry, too grumpy, too stuck or too undisciplined to reach your dreams. Recognize that you may be, right now, but you need to take action right now to change your circumstances. If you want to be a Marine, go do it! If you want to lose weight, go do it! If you want to run 10 miles everyday with a broken leg...well, the Docs might disagree, but if it makes you happy...go do it!
If my inner me is reading this...watch out, buddy 'cause I am coming for you!