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09-24-06, 09:17 PM
Theyre not all bad.
By Michael Weisskopf
Time
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Editor's note: The following is a summary of this week's Time magazine cover story.
Time's Michael Weisskopf lost his hand in Baghdad, Iraq, trying to toss a live grenade out of the Humvee in which he'd been traveling. In an extract from his new book "Blood Brothers," Weisskopf recalls his story.
(Time.com) -- The army convoy rattled through al-Adhamiya like a carnival roller coaster, each turn as blind as the next.
Not that the soldiers could see much anyway. Night had fallen on the old Baghdad quarter, a Byzantine maze lit only by kerosene lamps flickering from rugged stone houses.
We moved warily in the darkness, patrolling for insurgents in blind alleys custom-made for ambushes and narrow passages perfect for concealing roadside bombs. It was anyone's bet who faced a more dire risk, the hunted in terrorist cells or the hunters in Humvees, along with whom I was riding under a half-moon.
I was in Iraq to profile the American soldier as "Person of the Year" for Time magazine. It was a dream assignment, a chance to escape Washington and work in exotic environs on a big story.
We emerged into Al-Adhamiya's main marketplace, a large treeless square that was host to what looked like a block party in full swing. Old men, rocking back and forth on tiny stools, shuffled dominoes. Boys volleyed soccer balls. Women veiled in black fed their children from stalls of roasted chickens and shashlik. No one seemed to notice the foreign invaders passing by.
At first I thought it was a rock, the specialty of street urchins -- a harmless shot against an armored Humvee.
I gazed down and spotted an object on the wooden bench 2 feet away. The dark oval was as shiny and smooth as a tortoiseshell, roughly 6 inches long and 4 inches wide. None of my fellow passengers seemed to notice. I confronted the intruder alone, a journalist caught in a military moment. Something told me there was no time to consult the soldiers.
I rose halfway, leaned to the right, and cupped the object. I might as well have plucked volcanic lava from a crater. I could feel the flesh of my palm liquefying. Pain bolted up my arm like an electric current. In one fluid motion, I raised my right arm and started to throw the mass over the side of the vehicle, a short backhand toss. Then everything went dark.
The Humvee bed was cold and hard, an inhospitable place to awaken. I struggled to sit up and fell back. My right leg burned from knee to hip. Blood was oozing from it; my right arm felt heavy and numb. Was I having a nightmare? The hollow, faraway sound of voices was dreamlike. I shook my right arm, trying to wake it up. Still no response. I elevated it to see why.
My wrist looked like the neck of a decapitated chicken. The wound was jagged, the blood glistening in the light. My mouth was dry, my brow soaked in sweat; my heart beat quickly and weakly, little dings in my chest.
All sound and sight dimmed, as my thoughts turned inward. This is not how I pictured my life ending: futilely and unglamorously, on the frigid floor of a truck, thousands of miles away from anyone I loved.
After medic Billie Grimes stopped the bleeding with an elastic cord, I was rushed in the Humvee to a nearby brigade clinic and then medevacked to a U.S. Army hospital elsewhere in Baghdad for surgery to clean what was left of my arm and the shrapnel wounds in my right thigh.
There, I learned that everyone else in the back of the Humvee had survived, though Jenks had serious leg wounds, Beverly had knee and hand injuries and Nachtwey had taken shrapnel in his knees and abdomen. The next morning, a middle-aged nurse with blond highlights approached my bed.
"You're a hero," she said. "You lost a hand and saved lives."
Hero? I was feeling anything but valiant. Mangled. Pitiful. Disoriented. Scared. I was anxious about my ability to work again with one hand and to parent my children, who lived with me half-time in Washington.
My son Skyler was 11 years old, the same age I had been when my father, a workaholic community newspaper publisher, dropped dead of a heart attack. Olivia was 8, roughly as old as my sister had been. I couldn't bear to think I might let such wrenching family history repeat itself.
Mostly, however, I was angry at myself for getting in the wrong Humvee, releasing the grenade too slowly, even grabbing it in the first place. Nothing would have happened if I hadn't picked it up. Why had I been acting like a cowboy? Why hadn't I just left the damn thing alone?
"It was an impulsive act," I told the nurse. "If I hadn't picked it up, I'd still have a hand."
"You probably wouldn't have had a life," she retorted. "You and everyone else in the vehicle would have died. It wasn't an impulse; it was an instinct to survive."
Click here for the entire cover story on Time.
By Michael Weisskopf
Time
Adjust font size:
Editor's note: The following is a summary of this week's Time magazine cover story.
Time's Michael Weisskopf lost his hand in Baghdad, Iraq, trying to toss a live grenade out of the Humvee in which he'd been traveling. In an extract from his new book "Blood Brothers," Weisskopf recalls his story.
(Time.com) -- The army convoy rattled through al-Adhamiya like a carnival roller coaster, each turn as blind as the next.
Not that the soldiers could see much anyway. Night had fallen on the old Baghdad quarter, a Byzantine maze lit only by kerosene lamps flickering from rugged stone houses.
We moved warily in the darkness, patrolling for insurgents in blind alleys custom-made for ambushes and narrow passages perfect for concealing roadside bombs. It was anyone's bet who faced a more dire risk, the hunted in terrorist cells or the hunters in Humvees, along with whom I was riding under a half-moon.
I was in Iraq to profile the American soldier as "Person of the Year" for Time magazine. It was a dream assignment, a chance to escape Washington and work in exotic environs on a big story.
We emerged into Al-Adhamiya's main marketplace, a large treeless square that was host to what looked like a block party in full swing. Old men, rocking back and forth on tiny stools, shuffled dominoes. Boys volleyed soccer balls. Women veiled in black fed their children from stalls of roasted chickens and shashlik. No one seemed to notice the foreign invaders passing by.
At first I thought it was a rock, the specialty of street urchins -- a harmless shot against an armored Humvee.
I gazed down and spotted an object on the wooden bench 2 feet away. The dark oval was as shiny and smooth as a tortoiseshell, roughly 6 inches long and 4 inches wide. None of my fellow passengers seemed to notice. I confronted the intruder alone, a journalist caught in a military moment. Something told me there was no time to consult the soldiers.
I rose halfway, leaned to the right, and cupped the object. I might as well have plucked volcanic lava from a crater. I could feel the flesh of my palm liquefying. Pain bolted up my arm like an electric current. In one fluid motion, I raised my right arm and started to throw the mass over the side of the vehicle, a short backhand toss. Then everything went dark.
The Humvee bed was cold and hard, an inhospitable place to awaken. I struggled to sit up and fell back. My right leg burned from knee to hip. Blood was oozing from it; my right arm felt heavy and numb. Was I having a nightmare? The hollow, faraway sound of voices was dreamlike. I shook my right arm, trying to wake it up. Still no response. I elevated it to see why.
My wrist looked like the neck of a decapitated chicken. The wound was jagged, the blood glistening in the light. My mouth was dry, my brow soaked in sweat; my heart beat quickly and weakly, little dings in my chest.
All sound and sight dimmed, as my thoughts turned inward. This is not how I pictured my life ending: futilely and unglamorously, on the frigid floor of a truck, thousands of miles away from anyone I loved.
After medic Billie Grimes stopped the bleeding with an elastic cord, I was rushed in the Humvee to a nearby brigade clinic and then medevacked to a U.S. Army hospital elsewhere in Baghdad for surgery to clean what was left of my arm and the shrapnel wounds in my right thigh.
There, I learned that everyone else in the back of the Humvee had survived, though Jenks had serious leg wounds, Beverly had knee and hand injuries and Nachtwey had taken shrapnel in his knees and abdomen. The next morning, a middle-aged nurse with blond highlights approached my bed.
"You're a hero," she said. "You lost a hand and saved lives."
Hero? I was feeling anything but valiant. Mangled. Pitiful. Disoriented. Scared. I was anxious about my ability to work again with one hand and to parent my children, who lived with me half-time in Washington.
My son Skyler was 11 years old, the same age I had been when my father, a workaholic community newspaper publisher, dropped dead of a heart attack. Olivia was 8, roughly as old as my sister had been. I couldn't bear to think I might let such wrenching family history repeat itself.
Mostly, however, I was angry at myself for getting in the wrong Humvee, releasing the grenade too slowly, even grabbing it in the first place. Nothing would have happened if I hadn't picked it up. Why had I been acting like a cowboy? Why hadn't I just left the damn thing alone?
"It was an impulsive act," I told the nurse. "If I hadn't picked it up, I'd still have a hand."
"You probably wouldn't have had a life," she retorted. "You and everyone else in the vehicle would have died. It wasn't an impulse; it was an instinct to survive."
Click here for the entire cover story on Time.